NightComet

Hey everyone >:0

Just wanted to say hi, I'm alive. Currently in my 3rd year of medical school, so I'm doing my clinical rotations. My free time is inversely proportional to the difficulty of the rotation so I haven't been able to draw as much since I'm currently on my OBGYN rotation. Birthing babies takes lots of work! Only 2 more weeks of that for me though, then I do Pediatric Cardiology, which sounds super interesting. 

If you're wondering why this place is so dead and you're not already following my tumblr, please do so! It's doodleblah.tumblr.com/
I'm a lot more active over there than here ^^U Also I tend to upload more messy things there and the most refined things here OTL

Also if you or someone you know is interested in commissions, please spread the word and message me! Commission info is here 
_{When it comes time to do interviews I'll need anything I can get because I'll be flying all over the country *sobs one doctor told me he spent 5K on interviews sobs*}

So, how is everyone?

GUYS!! My art has been featured on Trickywi's (TrickyWolfy) Top 10 Prettiest Pokemon Fusions!!!

*SCREEEECHES* I'M SO HONORED :') TRIPLE TYPE MILOTIC YEAAAAHHH! Actually, that was one of my issues with that fusion, I couldn't pick a type combo for it :/ Wow wow wow ^^ this is so exciting, I'm such a fan of her videos

Sorry, carry on with life.

But I love it! ^_~ I love the material, grades are excellent, and so far, I like my classmates. However, I have a weird anxiety that everyone I interact with secretly hates me and is just being nice to me to humor me... I know those negative thoughts are probably just me (I hope), but still, ugh. My best friend keeps telling me that it's nothing to worry about. Also, having low self esteem is kinda kicking my butt, but I'm trying really hard to get over it. Sometimes my professors don't help...but be confident, even if you're wrong! *casually backs away and slinks into a corner to cry and be antisocial* 

Also it would be great to spread the word about commissions, because I really need the money for school TT_TT Even if you don't want a commission, please let others who might know so you can help me out that way! 

I need to find a new anime to obsess over. I've recently finished Owari no Seraph and Nurahiyon no Mago, but neither of those really spoke to me. I liked them, but not enough to become obsessed. I wanna try watching Parasyte and Higurashi because the horror action genre tends to be a bit more exciting. Also, I already like Parasyte's opening theme hehe

Hmm, nothing else to say. AWA is in a couple of weeks! Yaaay ready to cosplay the world's shortest Suga u//w//u

Hey, it's me!!

Everyone else: ugh why

Recently it's been same old, same old. I've been doing way better since the passing of Casey, gotten to that acceptance stage of grief. She's okay now c: I know that my last journal was very depressing, but I have some good news to share!

• Firstly, I'll be going to China next week! Woohoo! Which is great because I haven't been there in over 5 years and I get to see family. I'll be heading out at the end of April and spending 3 weeks there. While I'm there, I'll have no internet access so that's gonna stink. I've never been there during the spring, only during the summer, and summers are brutally hot, so it's good that it's during at least somewhat cooler weather. 
• Secondly, this is actually very old news to me, but I'll be going back to school in August! Medical school! I'm ready to spend the rest of my life in school! //sarcasm But really, I've wanted to become a doctor since forever, and I'm really excited to go to school and actually learn what I'm interested in lol I really hope that I get some art commissions started before hand, because I'm going to need to pull in all the money I can into school. And I'm not exactly made of money. If you could spread the word on tumblr and dA about commissions, that would be great!  doodleblah.tumblr.com/post/988…
• Thirdly, when I get back from China, I'm going to Momocon! Yaaaaay so pumped!! Me and Conmi have our cosplays lined up and I can't wait. Although I had a bad dream last night that me and her missed the bus and we had to run after it or we couldn't get there ha ha h a a. Hopefully that won't happen. If you're planning on going to Momocon, and want to just meet and talk about random stuff, let us know! Also, if you are cosplaying a Mogeko character on Saturday, I'm planning on organizing an independent group meet where we could take pictures and discuss Mogeko things. I'll put a post on tumblr once we get closer to the date in order to spread the word. 

Zvarri!

For those that follow me on Tumblr, you already know and can disregard this, but for those that don't, I just wanted to let you know that this past Valentine’s Day was a hard one for Conmi and me. Our dog, Casey, passed away and we buried her on Valentine’s so we would never forget her. She was a German Shephard-Beagle mix (or we think Beagle, because or her fur markings…we never really confirmed it), and was seriously the best dog that we could ever had. Out of her litter, she was the only girl, and she was so smart and really well behaved in that she never chewed up the furniture and usually didn’t have accidents inside the house. She loved to eat and eat and eat and whenever she wasn't eating, she was either running around chasing rabbits/squirrels/birds, or sleeping. I know you shouldn't feed dogs chicken bones and such, but my grandma had done it in secret for about a year, and after that, she would eat just about anything. We gave her our leftovers that we called “yum-yums” and she would gobble them up. The only things Casey wouldn’t eat were kimchi and some weird soup my mom tried feeding her. As she got older, she would pant a lot and it sounded like "ha hoo, ha hoo" so we nicknamed her "Ha-hoo." We had a lot of other nicknames, like "Doge", "Doggus", and "Land Shark".

Complications started to arise when her back legs stopped working and she couldn’t walk without assistance. As soon as her front legs started to go, we knew it was time. The choice was hard, but she went painlessly and peacefully and now she’s happy and can have all the food she wants. We loved her and she loved us back. We gave her the best life we could and she was a part of our family for 16 years. May she rest in peace.

We’ll miss you Casey, and you’ll always be in our hearts. We'll never forget you.

Everyday in the morning after I get up, I go visit her grave in the backyard. I talk to her as if nothing's changed, and I've been grieving and crying on and off for 5 days straight. She just looked like she was sleeping. We buried her with her food bowl, leash, collar, tags, and her dog bed and blanket. Additionally, we put 4 roses in her grave, one for each of us in the family, and placed many flowers on the top. Yesterday we got some new flowers for her, but we're going to wait until the freeze passes by to replace them. Where she used to sit in the house, I put a giant tiger plush because it just feels empty without her sitting there. I pet the plush just like it was her, as a method of coping. 

You can see pictures of her here: doodleblah.tumblr.com/post/111…

I won't be uploading art anytime soon, so expect a mini-hiatus.